When You Know Yourself Too Well

I know I’ve been gone for ages. I don’t have a reason. I don’t know if I’m going to post regularly again. I just needed to share this. 

I’ve made a real mess of my life lately. I’m not going to go into detail right now, but things have not been going well for me, and it’s my own fault. 

At the current moment in time, I have a very large pile of things to do for my Queen’s Award that is due in 23 hours that I haven’t started. I’ve just been putting it off constantly, and now it’s come down to this. 

Now we need some backstory. Two ish years ago, I found out about the website futureme.org, which enables you to send emails to yourself in the future. It was also two years ago that my procrastination first became a real issue, and I sent myself a whole bunch of emails, which I received a year ago. I must’ve decided to send myself another one after receiving all of them, because just now, as I was contemplating throwing in the towel with Queen’s Award and uni, I got this email from the past.

That is literally the most perfect timing possible. And it made me cry. 

Take away from this what you want. Maybe you needed to read that email too. Maybe you want to laugh at how well I appear to know my own stress and bad habits. I just felt like I needed to share it. Maybe it’s a turning point for me. I really hope so. 

This is going to be the most insane 23 hours. But, according to past me, I can do it. 

Arohanui, 
Tessa Ann