I have had an amazing time since I last spoke to you.
I went on school camp for four days, which was epic. I didn’t do half of the activities, like climbing a mountain and going white water rafting, because of my heart, but I got to sit in the bus and read (for eleven hours straight on one day). I read/finished three books in that day – which added up to over 1000 pages. And it was amazing. Seriously amazing. The rest of that camp was pretty epic too.
But what I really want to talk to you about is Easter Camp.
I wasn’t tired after school camp on Thursday, so I went straight to Easter Camp, rather than spending the night at home. This was my fourth Easter Camp, and I would say it was my best one yet.
You see, in the past, I’d gone to EC (soooo much quicker to type) with some issue or problem to deal with. I kinda talked about this when I guest posted on Sarah’s blog, so if you missed that, maybe check it out here. I’d go to EC with this expectation for God to do something, and He would, and then I’d go home and all would be lost.
But this year was different. Life was good, and I wasn’t depressed or in dire need of saving from something. I went to EC with the expectation that I’d have a good time, but otherwise I wasn’t sure what would happen.
What did end up happening was God taught me and showed me so many things, and it was incredible. I’ve taken away more from this EC than all of the other ones combined, because I was fully open to God working however He wanted.
Things I learned:
1. I have the potential to be a great leader in the future
I’ve always wanted to be a leader/teacher, like a youth leader, GB leader, and an actual teacher. However, I’ve always doubted my abilities. What if I’m not mature enough? What if I can’t? What if I’m not respected? Well, this EC, God showed me that I have so much potential. There were six or seven new Year 9 girls there this year, and it somehow happened that I fell into a bit of a leadership role with them. By placing me in this position, God took the opportunity to show me that one day, in the not so distant future, I could be a great leader. And honestly, that’s the confirmation I needed.
2. God has placed people in my life as role models for becoming a leader
You never realized how much of an impact people have had in your life until you begin to step into a role that is similar to theirs. My previous teachers and youth leaders and other role models all helped to shape me so that I could have that potential. But the main person that God placed in my life to show me how to be a great leader to those girls? My mum. Looking back at EC, I can see how much of my actions were influenced by her and the way that she brought me up, and I just know that God used her to make me the person I am today.
3. For the next stage of my life, I’m supposed to stay right where I am
At the end of the year, I graduate high school. After that, I’m free to do what I want. Since I aim to become a teacher, I could study nearly anywhere in New Zealand. Studying here seems like a weird choice, since I’d be doing a four year degree with only one year focusing on teaching, rather than a three year degree that’s entirely teaching. But after spending so much time with those girls, I can see myself as their leader next year. I can’t see myself leaving town and going elsewhere. I see myself staying put and being their leader and studying here. That was my original plan anyway, but I feel like this was God confirming that this is the right decision.
4. God can speak to you in many different ways
In the past, I’d mostly heard from God through music or through people’s words. This EC, however, I mainly heard from Him through the experiences I had. There is no way He could have shown me all of this any way other than through letting me experience it. And I’m so, so grateful that He did.
5. You don’t need to have a specific issue for God to teach you things
If you’d asked me what I wanted to hear from God about, I probably would have said something about the future, but I also would have said that things were mostly fine and I would have been happy with just having an enjoy weekend at EC without any divine experiences. But God knew what I needed to hear from Him, even if I didn’t. My life was pretty great before EC, but now it’s even better after.
If this year had been like other years – if I had been desperate for God to fix something in my life or give me some kind of reassurance – then there is no way I would have noticed all that He had shown me. It makes me wonder how much I’ve missed in previous years.
The aim of this post is to show you that a) God is really awesome, and b) He is always doing things to help you, even if you can’t tell or you don’t think you need it. To hear His voice, all you need to do is look up and away from the distractions, open your eyes to His messages, and listen.