This is going to be extremely random, but it will hopefully explain the lack of posts lately.
I have three clocks in my room. The first is a small, rectangular, analog clock that sits on my headboard. The second is a pink digital clock, also on my headboard, that I use as my alarm clock. The third is a blue and silver analog clock with a duck on it, that hangs on the wall opposite my bed.
Over the past twelveish days, my duck clock has been losing time, about ten minutes a day. It started off being just a few minutes behind, and by this afternoon, it was two hours behind and stopped completely, although it did start working again after a while. It is now about three and a half hours behind.
That’s like life. Sometimes, when our batteries get worn down or we are just too busy and stressed, we need to slow down for a bit, or stop completely. We can’t keep going at the same pace forever. Every so often, we need to just stop, take a break, recharge, and begin again.
I’m at that point now, where I need to stop and reevaluate my life. There are a lot of things going on at the moment that need sorting out, whether it is the mess on my floor or the mess in my brain. I’ve been going for too long without actually dealing with the things that need dealing with, and very soon, I’m going to break down and stop functioning properly completely. Things are reaching breaking point and something needs to change.
This past week has been a very busy week for me. I had something on every single afternoon/evening, which never happens, as well as schoolwork. Catching up on posts just seemed daunting, and I wasn’t very motivated. I haven’t been very motivated to do anything lately, to be honest. For example, I have a Bible assignment due on Friday that I’ve barely started. I was going to work on it today, but I seem to be getting very good at avoiding the things that I need to focus on. Like what the heck I’m doing with my life.
So, there you have it, folks. My life is a mess and I’m avoiding dealing with it. There’s some brutal honesty for you. I don’t know when I’ll start posting again, or when I’ll do the ones that I’ve missed, but for now, I need a break. A break from everything would be great, but I unfortunately don’t have the capability to pause time and run away and hide for a while. Hopefully I’ll begin to sort out my mess in the next two days (thank goodness for public holidays), and things will be back to normal soon.
But honestly, I would really appreciate some prayer right now. I need to get things back on track, but I’m not sure where to start and I’m feeling quite lost. So yeah. Please pray that I can get my head on straight and start to function normally again.